“I can’t imagine how people can through something like this without God.”
I don’t know how many times I’ve said this to people over the past weeks. There are no words to express what I have been feeling. How is someone to express feelings to the God of the universe when one can’t even separate the emotions out?
There has been anger, loss, frustration, confusion, and pain all rolled into one.
My sister passed away and into the arms of the One who saved her over thirty years ago.
She made bad choices in her life, and in the end those choices caught up with her. The years of drug use wreaked havoc with her body.
I’ve wanted to pray, and I desired to stand on His promises but I haven’t been able to crack open the Bible to read. Oddly, it’s not because of rebellion or anger toward God. It’s grief – caused numbness.
I have been in situations in the past where I have only one or two words to say such as “Help” or “Thank You.” But now there is nothing. Not even one.
Someone asked, “How’s your family doing?” and my answer was, “We’re doing okay for now. I’m so thankful that the Holy Spirit and the Son speak to the Father on my behalf because I’m at a complete loss what to pray.”
A few hours later, that same thought came out of now where while I was on my to pick a daughter up from school. For the first time, I understood the concept; the Holy Spirit and the Son were interceding on my behalf, because all I can do is cry.
The Father knows and understands because He is being told by the best possible mediators. He knows, for He has experienced the loss of a loved one, His Son.
Comfort and peace floods my heart, knowing God knows even when a word is spoken.
“And in the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
Romans 8:26-28 (NASB)
Solitude with the Father 